I don't know if I'm the only one who has these feelings, however, it may just be a symptom of the illness.
I went to see my family practitioner the other day to do some blood work (glucose, cholesterol, etc.) and she heard some wheezing in my lungs. I wasn't even going to mention to her that I had a pain in my back, so when she told me this, a little light bulb went off. She put me on a Zpack and did an EKG. I started feeling better after the 2nd dose of antibiotic.
Sometimes, I don't even realize I am sick because of the narcolepsy and fatigue. These symptoms are such a part of my life that I don't notice other things about my body. The whole circumstance left me feeling a little lost.
I started to get that ol' feelin' of the blues again and I DON'T want to go there again. I guess I am just feeling melancholy.
Luckily, the nurse called the next day to tell me my glucose levels went down (although I am still considered pre-diabetic by the numbers), my cholesterol and vital signs are all good. So, I want to know -- am I crazy for feeling down in the dumps or is it because I have a respiratory infection or is it just a symptom of narcolepsy (in general) to feel low sometimes?
My brain started conjuring up all these terrible scenarios before I could process the good news.
I am ever-vigilant in pushing back any strong emotions for fear of a cataplexy attack. So, I guess not letting out your emotions can make you feel down in the dumps.
If anyone else ever feels like this, let me know. I know I should cut myself a break, but I feel so limited that this "feeling a little lost" thing is hovering over me like a black cloud and I am having trouble shaking it off. Know what I mean?
Well, tomorrow's another day. I will try to wake up with a new attitude and positive outlook. Wish me luck. Thanks!